An explanation and an apology.

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The month of November is a difficult month for me. It has nothing to do with daylight savings time, and nothing to do with colder weather, and only partially due to election stress. I had a still-born daughter on November 3, 1999, and that means that this year, our daughter Ruthie would have turned 21.

I used to love the month of November. The smell of longing and autumn; cold nights, crisp mornings and fair…