Dear Cris,

I so appreciate your encouragement & support. It’s a relief to know that what we’re going through isn’t unique, that people went through the same pain, anxiety & fear & came out ok on the other side. I’m trying to relax, & just take care of my daughter, and take each day as it comes, but sometimes several days attack me at once.

I had a bit of a meltdown going to the store today. It wasn’t our usual grocery store, but I wanted to get specific zinc recommended to me. So I wound up driving to the YMCA I went to for 14 years, by the library I used to frequent, by my therapist’s office (remembering that she’s retiring this year), & the store is located by a tiny, two-screen independent movie theater. Man, I missed & mourned the life that was so easy & non-lethal — maybe less lethal would be a more correct term. There was an Indian Reataurant/buffet that I frequented from time to time, sometimes alone with a book, sometimes with a friend, that’s still there, and all the memories were just too much.

It actually felt good to cry, let it all out. I’ve been acting brave for my kids & husband, but I’m a coward & it’s tough to act tough for so long. That explains why I got so much: dark chocolate-covered raisins, dark chocolate-covered walnuts & gummy bears. Which is strange, ‘cause I prefer salty goodness of hard salami to sugary snacks.

No matter. The next week, two weeks we’re quarantining ourselves except for getting food delivered, so a few chocolate treats aren’t going to go to waste.

Again, thank you for your support & cheer. I appreciate more than mere words can express.

Writer and storyteller, immigrant, wife, mom, knitter, collector of jokes, lover of cheap, sweet wine.

Writer and storyteller, immigrant, wife, mom, knitter, collector of jokes, lover of cheap, sweet wine.