I do my best. I think. Before I started blogging, I was terrified of both success & failure. Now I’m blogging. I’m a good writer. Not a great one, but a good one. I became a blogger on Medium so I could become better. I don’t have a platform — therein lies my problem, but I don’t want to go there now.
I don’t have a following. My friends stopped, very gradually, following me, getting busy with their own lives. I have a wonderful community here at Medium I follow & love & enjoy, but it’s not big enough for me to get paid. At least not yet.
I do what I love. I no longer fear success. I live between failure & success, but I define success as writing what I love. So, maybe you should simply have a different definitions both success & failure? Maybe that’s the answer?
Good luck & good writing!