It makes sense. I am riddled with so many fears, it nearly overwhelms me. I fear failure & success, I fear not being good enough & not being persistent enough & not being knowledgeable enough. And my fears have lived with me for so long, they have grown roots & sent out shoots, entangled within my nerve ganglia. I mean, not literally, of course. Fear is about as real as I have given it power to be. But to begin to separate them so I could start a small step against just one of the motherfuckers — I need to do extensive journaling. But it is exhausting, living in constant fear. And I am tired of being tired, tired of fear controlling me instead of the other way around! I am going to go ahead & journal now. Wish me luck, & thank you for the encouraging article!

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